Hey Big Bro 
...was just sittin here at home listening to music that I know you would give me a funny look and say "Dana, what's wrong with you!" We had such different tastes in everything, but we made a perfect pair as brother and sister. You know as a big brother you always made sure I was safe and that I was "doing ok" even if it was from the back row. Well now you have a birds eye view and that's cheating. You always cheated and could get away with it cuz you were bigger than me, but mom would catch you sometimes and ha ha you would get in big trouble like the time when we lived in Auburn in that great big house that was 2 stories and gray and scary, and you were always supposed to be home before me but this one day I couldn't find you so I just figured after a while that you stayed after school so I was looking for a snack and I heard a ghostly sound calling my name, I called mom at work and she was working in Sacramento and I was so scared then the noises came from under the kitchen window which was right next to the door into the kitchen which was all glass and I threw the first thing I could grab which was a pan and it went right through the glass and I though oh boy was I in trouble but oh no u were the one that got into trouble. I laughed and laughed cuz you really scared me you already knew I hated that house it was so scary oh and that was the house that you shot me in the but with a beebee gun boy did you get in trouble for that too! Wel Vance I miss you today more than yesterday, I'm having a terrible time figuring out why certain things are or are not happening, I am really quite beside myself, but I'm thinking I can do this and I can be the strong one and find out how to fix it, you need to be at peace, laid with mom, and finally not have to be all mixed up and sad and all that yucky stuff, you need to be laiid to rest and be at peace, maybe then I will have some closure but now I feel like your still here, even though I can't call you, I talk and talk and hope that you hear, I'm sorry I'm not stronger and haven't been able to step up and get it handled but I just don't know if I can, but I can promise you that I will figure out a way, some how, some way, you will be laid to rest and be able to have peace finally. I love you Vance please send me some of your strength, I feel like I'm melting into the ground.
...was just sittin here at home listening to music that I know you would give me a funny look and say "Dana, what's wrong with you!" We had such different tastes in everything, but we made a perfect pair as brother and sister. You know as a big brother you always made sure I was safe and that I was "doing ok" even if it was from the back row. Well now you have a birds eye view and that's cheating. You always cheated and could get away with it cuz you were bigger than me, but mom would catch you sometimes and ha ha you would get in big trouble like the time when we lived in Auburn in that great big house that was 2 stories and gray and scary, and you were always supposed to be home before me but this one day I couldn't find you so I just figured after a while that you stayed after school so I was looking for a snack and I heard a ghostly sound calling my name, I called mom at work and she was working in Sacramento and I was so scared then the noises came from under the kitchen window which was right next to the door into the kitchen which was all glass and I threw the first thing I could grab which was a pan and it went right through the glass and I though oh boy was I in trouble but oh no u were the one that got into trouble. I laughed and laughed cuz you really scared me you already knew I hated that house it was so scary oh and that was the house that you shot me in the but with a beebee gun boy did you get in trouble for that too! Wel Vance I miss you today more than yesterday, I'm having a terrible time figuring out why certain things are or are not happening, I am really quite beside myself, but I'm thinking I can do this and I can be the strong one and find out how to fix it, you need to be at peace, laid with mom, and finally not have to be all mixed up and sad and all that yucky stuff, you need to be laiid to rest and be at peace, maybe then I will have some closure but now I feel like your still here, even though I can't call you, I talk and talk and hope that you hear, I'm sorry I'm not stronger and haven't been able to step up and get it handled but I just don't know if I can, but I can promise you that I will figure out a way, some how, some way, you will be laid to rest and be able to have peace finally. I love you Vance please send me some of your strength, I feel like I'm melting into the ground.